Apologies

Dear you (you know who you are),
I am sorry for what I did to you. Trust me I feel guilty each day for what I did. But it wasn't really my fault you know. I didn't love you. I couldn't. You were always just a friend and I was going through a really hard time. I needed love and attention and I found them in you. But I am sorry I couldn't love you back or give you the attention you needed. You said I deserved to be alone and that I would never find anyone else who can love me as much as you. I wish I could tell you that I only loved you as a friend. But thank you for being there for me and pulling me out of the darkness when I needed light the most. Thank you. I wish with all my heart that you find someone even better than me, someone who is capable of loving you the way you deserve to be loved. You were right. Love is beautiful and I know it now. We could have been perfect. Only if I loved you. And I'm sorry I couldn't make myself do that; couldn't force myself. I just couldn't. I wish I had been selfless and told you this before, so that you didn't get so involved into whatever-it-was. But I'm only human and I make mistakes. So here I am, apologizing for all your pain and every time you hurt because of me. I know I can't change what happened. If only I could go back in time and fix all of this, which I can't. I understand if you still hate me, even now. But I just want to tell you that I'm sorry.
Take care,
Me

Yes you are beautiful!

Why do we ask others to tell us if we are good looking, asking them to rate us? , Why dont we rate ourselves or have the confidence of giving ourselves a 10/10? Why do you need someone else to tell you that you look good? Do you think you are less than anybody; because if you think that you are, then no one can make you believe that you aren't. Rise up in your own eyes. Respect yourself. Have the confidence to stand in front of the mirror and say that you are beautiful, not just on the outside but also on the inside. Because if you believe in it, then you really are. I have seen my friends, so many of them comparing their looks with random people on the internet or trying to land a hotter boyfriend just to show their ex's that they made a mistake by ditching them. Is this what life is all about? About mindless comparison or about proving yourself to people who dont even matter? Don't you have the courage to feel beautiful? Don't you have the confidence to feel that you are not less than anyone? Have we lost faith in our own selves? Rather than asking anyone to rate you, rate yourself. Because only you know yourself the best. And no one can tell you where you stand. No one has the right to tell you that. You are special in your own way and are here for a purpose. Find that purpose. Fulfil it. The world is a cruel place. They won't let you feel good; but never stop believing in yourself and always remember that there are people in this world to whom you mean a lot and who take you just as you are. You are beautiful for them and maybe even their reason to smile.